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Those Moments

As a mother, I have my fair share of moments where I just feel like such a failure. Maybe you can relate. It’s when you show up ten minutes late when you promised you’d be there early – this time. It’s when you rushed out the door and forgot to pack their lunch – again. It’s giving permission to grab something from the laundry basket because you just didn’t get to the wash – tonight.

I have the best intentions, but I have the most disheveled mental filing cabinet. I can’t remember things anymore unless I write it down or put it in my phone so it can send me a reminder.

Morning commute: Get gas
Lunch break: Mail that letter, pick up milk and bread
Evening commute: Don’t forget to call your mother!
Bedtime: Shower (I know!)

In all the chaos of trying to juggle the precious hours I am given each day, I question whether I am making the most of every one. I ask myself what I am missing, and at what cost. Then those moments appear… the ones you replay in your head and treasure in your heart. It’s when your oldest child cuddles her sister and reads her a book – instead of fighting. It’s when everyone piles on mommy’s bed on a Saturday morning – after having slept in. It’s when you run outside without a coat, stand under the street light, and catch the falling snow with your tongue – because you should.

Those are the moments that matter. Those are the moments that shape us. They are sacred reminders of beauty, love, and sweetness. They sustain us.

 
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Posted by on February 15, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

Just Breathe

Sometimes I look at my life and it takes my breath away. Other times I look at my life and IT TAKES MY BREATH AWAY! I am trying to be more appreciative and focus on the blessings, rather than letting myself get weighed down by the overwhelming tasks of each day. It is so easy to look at each day and see the enormity of working full-time, commuting, being a single parent, maintaining a household, keeping pets alive (I gave up on plants a long time ago), and adding to the To-Do list those items that I just couldn’t get to on my lunch break. Where does the time go?

The ironic thing is that we wake up each day and time is so abundantly ours for the taking! We start each day with time, and lots of it. I’ve never been good at prioritizing time. I get an urge and I go with it. An unfortunate consequence of this is procrastinating those things that I should be doing. I am almost always late – for everything. I’m lucky if I remembered everything I needed to pack. I am notoriously seeking out something … else.

In the midst of it all though, I have two amazing daughters who give the best hugs when I come home, who can’t wait to share their adventures with me, who pray earnestly when I lay with them at bedtime and ask me to linger just a little longer. Our home may not be vacuumed as often as it should and our fish bowls will always need cleaning. We may arrive late and our clothes may be wrinkled (most likely). Regardless, we have love abundantly and such sweetness. Some days just require deeper breaths.

 
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Posted by on February 8, 2012 in Uncategorized

 
 
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